Blogger’s block

blog bdays1A missionary colleague of mine just mentioned how she was reconnecting with her true introverted self, and it took me back a step.  This past month for me has been happily busy on the outside, with 5 day work weeks and lots of family time with activities on the weekends, but my inner thoughts have been a bit of a struggle.  I felt a need to be alone a bit, but I couldn’t bring myself to sit at the computer and write blogs, and I wasn’t sure why.  Could it be that I feel guilty enjoying myself so much?  Could it be that this place and its ministries are so different from what we left behind in CAR?  Could it be that sometimes I just want to be quiet and just process without needing to tell the world what’s happening around me and in me – ie, reconnect with my introverted self, as my friend shared?  She and I have just finished, via our email “book club”, “The Spiritual Danger of Doing Good” by Peter Greer.  His book is chockablock full of wonderful insights into what might be hiding behind our public actions.  Like being prideful about our humility…so though I sometimes think that the “b” in blogging is really for bragging or blabbing, I have to say that our friends and family do give alot of positive feedback when they hear news from us.  Now you can breathe a sigh of relief if you’ve been holding your breath, LOL, because I’m going to keep on asking for prayer, I’m going to keep writing bits and pieces, and I’m going to keep on putting photos up to give you a peek into our lives. AND I will find the time to re-energize, alone, Lord willing.


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As Covenant missionaries, we are working with all the tribal groups of the Central African Republic (CAR) but are trying to give special attention to the Fulani, a Musxlim, cattle herding, and semi-nomadic people group. We live on an experimental/training farm, near a mission station which has a hospital plus bible and nursing schools. We are establishing relationships with the local people groups through compassion ministries; Roy through agriculture and Aleta through public health and visitation, in order, ultimately, to share the good news of Jesus the Messiah with them. CAR is one of the least developed countries in the world and is currently in continual crisis (since the coup in March 2013), so reaching out in compassion is key to reaching their hearts. Due to the ongoing conflict and resultant ethnic cleansing in CAR, we are crossing the border to interact with our Fulani contacts.
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