I picked up another book. Some Assembly Required by Anne Lamott. It’s my first book by her, but I have always heard good things. I think I was supposed to read Operating Instructions first. That’s when she talks about having a baby as a single mother. Now her baby is 19 and he is having a baby of his own. She talks about what it’s like to be a grandma. She talks about the things she enjoys and all the things she worries about for her son and grandson.
“I think about the idea of his having dual citizenship – a child of God and heaven, with a human life here – and how confusing that has always been for me. And what he is in for, because our spiritual and human identities coexist, the way light is both particle and wave.”
This reminds me of a quote I’ve come across by Pierre Teilhard de Chardin,
“We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.”
No matter how we word it or process it, I can feel this tension between two worlds. A love for life here on earth, but a longing for something more.