{"id":1879,"date":"2015-05-04T23:00:06","date_gmt":"2015-05-04T23:00:06","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogs.covchurch.org\/bge\/?p=1879"},"modified":"2015-05-05T00:49:12","modified_gmt":"2015-05-05T00:49:12","slug":"living-into-our-convictions","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/blogs.covchurch.org\/bge\/2015\/05\/04\/living-into-our-convictions\/","title":{"rendered":"Living Into Our Convictions"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><em>Jo Ann Deasy is an ordained Covenant pastor currently serving as the director of institutional initiatives and student research at the Association of Theological Schools in Pittsburgh, PA.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/blogs.covchurch.org\/bge\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/96\/2015\/05\/image.jpg\" rel=\"prettyPhoto[1879]\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-medium wp-image-1882\" src=\"http:\/\/blogs.covchurch.org\/bge\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/96\/2015\/05\/image-300x300.jpg\" alt=\"image\" width=\"200\" height=\"200\" srcset=\"http:\/\/blogs.covchurch.org\/bge\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/96\/2015\/05\/image-300x300.jpg 300w, http:\/\/blogs.covchurch.org\/bge\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/96\/2015\/05\/image-150x150.jpg 150w, http:\/\/blogs.covchurch.org\/bge\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/96\/2015\/05\/image.jpg 762w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 200px) 100vw, 200px\" \/><\/a>As most of you already know, I am very committed to biblical gender equality. I am an ordained pastor in the Evangelical Covenant Church, was the senior pastor of a church, wrote a dissertation on how churches form identity in young women, and consider myself a pretty serious feminist. In the last 9 months, though, all of that has been put to the test. What has challenged all of my beliefs and made me question my own commitments? Church shopping\u2026 Yes, church shopping.<\/p>\n<p>Last July I moved to Moon, Pennsylvania, a city just west of Pittsburgh, a city with no Covenant churches. Yes, there are Covenant churches in Pittsburgh, but with a toddler the 45 minute Sunday morning commute into Declan\u2019s naptime (as well as the minimum 60 minute weekday evening commute) just isn\u2019t possible. I\u2019d really like to find something that is closer to home, something we can eventually be involved in during the week as well as on Sundays. So, I began church shopping.<\/p>\n<p>I have met some lovely people. Heard some decent sermons. Enjoyed some great worship. Of course, I\u2019ve also been ignored, struggled with a squirming toddler through a service with no childcare, heard some terrible music, and been shocked by how quickly you can realize you don\u2019t fit theologically with a congregation. Mostly, though, I\u2019ve been challenged to figure out what my non-negotiables are. I\u2019ve been challenged to think of church through the eyes of my son. I\u2019ve had to decide what is most important to me as I consider what I want my son to understand about God and about women pastors.<\/p>\n<p>Do I choose a congregation that has great worship, a strong children\u2019s ministry, but does not believe in women in ministry? Is a church with a woman pastor enough? Even if they have no children\u2019s programs? What if they say they are supportive of women, but always use male language for human beings? No gender neutral language of any kind. What if they use gender neutral language for human beings but never for God? What if they do use gender inclusive language, support women pastors, but don\u2019t affirm scripture the same way that I do? Or what if I just don\u2019t like the worship? What if I don\u2019t feel like I am getting anything out of the sermons even though they are preached by a woman pastor with a theology that I agree with?<!--more--><\/p>\n<p>How important is this to me? I know many people who choose to go to churches that don\u2019t affirm women pastors because they like the preaching and worship. I wish I could take that route, but I can\u2019t. I can\u2019t because I am a woman pastor. I can\u2019t because I don\u2019t want my son to grow up thinking that women can\u2019t be pastors. I can\u2019t because I think it really matters that we understand a God who is neither male nor female\u2026 or both\u2026 or beyond. I can\u2019t because I don\u2019t want anything to get in the way of my child knowing that both men and women are created in the image of God and bear that image to the world in the same way.<\/p>\n<p>I am frustrated sometimes that others are allowed to compromise on this issue in ways that I can\u2019t. Even jealous some days. I wish I didn\u2019t care. I wish it didn\u2019t make me so angry sometimes. I wish\u2026 dare I say I wish I was never called to be a woman pastor? No. I don\u2019t wish that. But it sure would make life easier at times.<\/p>\n<p>And so I will keep looking. Asking God to give me a sign when I have found the right place, the right place for me and the right place for my son. May God give me the willingness to compromise on the things that are matters of preference and the strength to hold to the things that are central to my faith.<\/p>\n<p>And may God give each of you the courage to do the same. May you be willing to look beyond the music and preaching to the image of God\u2026 and of humanity that is being conveyed. May you have the courage to fight for good theology in your churches. And may you raise sons and daughters who never question God\u2019s equal creation and call of women and men into this world and into ministry.<\/p>\n<p class=\"wp-report-this\"><a href=\"http:\/\/blogs.covchurch.org\/bge?moderation_action=report_form&#038;object_type=post&#038;object_id=1879&#038;width=250&#038;height=300\" class=\"thickbox\" title=\"Report This Post\">Report This Post<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Jo Ann Deasy is an ordained Covenant pastor currently serving as the director of institutional initiatives and student research at the Association of Theological Schools in Pittsburgh, PA. As most of you already know, I am very committed to biblical gender equality. 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